Quarantine Diaries Norway IV - How To Live On Your Own

QDN 4 - How to live in your own

The strange thing is not feeling alone during these days. Sometimes we feel this way even in a space surrounded by people. Although it’s a collective state of mind since we are all facing the same situation, not all of us have the same strength.

Exactly 3.968 kilometres keep me away from my city. No relatives, no close friends and no routine. There’s so much time to think about everything. Reframe your life, question past decisions, doubt about unquestionable truths so far and feel the uncertainty of the future, because tomorrow has always scared us. In these situations we realize that we are not always as strong as we think we appear or as we thought we were.

On a psychological level, you suffer ups and down and sometimes mental breakdowns. I started new activities like drawing or painting. I'm not entirely sure if I really like them, I just know that this situation pushes you to try unexplored areas so far by force. You seek not to feel yourself like a useless person and find relief where there is restlessness".

I’m learning that you have to listen to yourself sometimes. You can not be always happy or careless. For some reason sadness and down moments exist and that’s not bad because your emotions must not be hold back. They have to be brought out from ourselves, just to value the best moments in life. Now, I know that these moments are the more insignificant ones: drink a beer with your friends in the crummy bar in town, take a walk by the coast or simply watch a movie with your family on the coach. Having a lot of free time is not necessary spending a good time.

Carla Escribano Pérez